somethings missing.

we havent had a decent conversation for months. i havent seen you for months. we used to be such good friends. and now its like we're strangers. just two people who cant make 20 minutes to sit down and catch up. two people who would just walk by with merely a superficial hi. i do miss you. talking to you about everything and anything. it seems strange to be so close yet so far. why does it have to be akward whenever we see each other. why cant we play pretend. make believe we're still friends. i miss you. so talk to me. pretend its not awkward. pretend its not weird. lets just be friends again.

M.I.A

FAIL.
ive failed to blog for over a month.

past two months have been greaaaat to say the least.

• redecorated my bedroom (half way anyway)
• finally won a game of oztag (although not officially)
• read my very first novel (twilight:))
• learnt how to turn a steering wheel properly
• got my tax return (time for a shopping spree)
• 2months for me & my princess bong

im sure theres plenty more ive failed to mention.

i shall blog soon, until then... toodles!

laaaaaa!

dont make pathetic excuses for yourself.
you act like a saint but youre not.
pestering little tart.

bfflab

i miss you buddy!

intentions.

why is it not okay for someone to want time alone?
is it such a crime to want to do your own thing?

questioned for doing what i am doing.
why is it that i have to give you a reason for doing what i want.
understand that there is no undertone to why i do this.
i do it because it makes me feel calm.
not because i want to get away from you and everyone else.
or whatever ludicrous reason you choose to believe.


ive learnt to trust myself and only myself.
people you thought were your friends are no longer.

i found out how two-faced you can be.
youre judgemental and hypocritical.
and you've surely lost my trust.
i dont look at you the same way.
i did something unintentionally to you and you gave me reason to feel bad.
you said this, thinking it wont get to me.
but it has and i now know the truth.
its so easy to just forget your friendship, believe me.

uneducated.

i dont understand how a bunch of people can be so rude and demeaning with no etiquette whatsoever. they were verbally abusive, not to mention racist too. there is no need for violence on the field. pissed me off you bunch of ill educated bogans! we'll get our justice!

1 eventually becomes 2.

i was asked about you today. subconciously it frustrated me. and i didnt realise until now. no longer there. but you still manage to piss me off.


im not talking to you. im not making effort. its not because im angry at you. its because i dont want to take it out on you. and have to regret it tomorrow.

frustrated.agitated.angry.emotional.fragile.