the partying continues.

another friday night and another night of partying. i always look forward to the weekend, fridays particularly, for the drinks and the dancing. one aspect that kills my fun, is the thought of work :( grr oh how i wish i didnt have to work.

last night was tuyet's 18th birthday bash and what a success that was. i dont think anyone there could say they didnt have a good night. the people, the music, the dancing as well as the bar tab made this night great. big thanks to tuyet, who looked so hot in her hot pink dress ;)

im off to study now. looking forward to next weekend!

jennifer xx

friday night.

friday night was a good night despite the rain and the sickly cold i had earlier that day. although i do wish that more of you guys showed up that night, it would have been an even more eventful night. theres more opportunities and more friday nights for us all to grab a few drinks and dance the night away!

fun fun fun, i cant wait for the holidays to arrive.

hypocricy is thy name.

WORDS.
so much easier said than done right?
i hate it how its so easy for someone to say one thing and do another.

if you say you're something, i expect you to be that someone.
if you say you wont do something, i expect you not to do it.

the word "sorry" is so over used now, its lost its meaning.
actions speak louder than words buddy.

- jennifer xx

no scars.

IT HAS TO GET WORSE BEFORE IT CAN GET BETTER.

happy mothers day!

.. and a special happy birthday to jeannie :)


PRETEND.
im pretending to be your friend, because i cant bring myself to say im not.
im pretending not to care, because youd think im weak if i do.
im pretending to believe you, because thats what you want to hear.
im pretending to be someone, because thats who you believe i am.
im pretending this is easy, because you expect too much of me.
im pretending youre the same person, because its hard to admit youre not.

i like to play pretend, because it reminds me of how things were.

jennifer xx

my first blog.. ever!

my two ears: “told you so” – jesse mccartney
my ten fingers: marty


writing, deleting, writing, deleting. Ive been doing this for the past hour. Contemplating whether or not I should be displaying what im thinking for the world to see.
I don’t wouldn’t know where to start, quite a lot has happened in the past month. This is where martys line comes in “things have changed in such a short amount of time”. And its true. From friendships to family.


WAIT.
Personally I am an impatient person and I hate waiting. But weirdly enough, one particular situation has proven me wrong. The past few weeks I have been waiting for something to happen. For a change to occur. For some sort of direction or indication. But no sign as of yet. I don’t know why I have let this situation get to how it is now or why I haven’t done anything to change my uncertainty towards the situation. It could possibly be that I am waiting for some sort of hope that I could save this from going downhill.
The question is how do I make change happen, without personally forcing it myself? I have found ive been asking myself this question a lot as of lately. And because I have not yet found the answer, ive been waiting.
The end.


The past few weeks have not been all peaches and cream. And I know that every negative comes with a positive. But ive been drifting from a few friends lately, I acknowledge that. Possibly because I feel as though I cant say anything to them without feeling selfish. Previously all or most of my conversations will end in either of us sharing our problems. And recently, ive felt as though my issues are irrelevant as compared to what has been happening around me. Which has caused me to hold back. But on the other hand, this has caused me to put my trust in a closer group of friends. And I have never felt closer to friends than I do now. I can trust my life with these people. You know when you have friends so close to you that you can just look at them, and they’ll know what youre talking about, or you guys can just sit there doing jack all and still have a good time, or the friends you can rely on when you just want to chill at random times of the day. This is love <3 chi is a hobbit.

til next time..
jenniferxx