my first blog.. ever!

my two ears: “told you so” – jesse mccartney
my ten fingers: marty


writing, deleting, writing, deleting. Ive been doing this for the past hour. Contemplating whether or not I should be displaying what im thinking for the world to see.
I don’t wouldn’t know where to start, quite a lot has happened in the past month. This is where martys line comes in “things have changed in such a short amount of time”. And its true. From friendships to family.


WAIT.
Personally I am an impatient person and I hate waiting. But weirdly enough, one particular situation has proven me wrong. The past few weeks I have been waiting for something to happen. For a change to occur. For some sort of direction or indication. But no sign as of yet. I don’t know why I have let this situation get to how it is now or why I haven’t done anything to change my uncertainty towards the situation. It could possibly be that I am waiting for some sort of hope that I could save this from going downhill.
The question is how do I make change happen, without personally forcing it myself? I have found ive been asking myself this question a lot as of lately. And because I have not yet found the answer, ive been waiting.
The end.


The past few weeks have not been all peaches and cream. And I know that every negative comes with a positive. But ive been drifting from a few friends lately, I acknowledge that. Possibly because I feel as though I cant say anything to them without feeling selfish. Previously all or most of my conversations will end in either of us sharing our problems. And recently, ive felt as though my issues are irrelevant as compared to what has been happening around me. Which has caused me to hold back. But on the other hand, this has caused me to put my trust in a closer group of friends. And I have never felt closer to friends than I do now. I can trust my life with these people. You know when you have friends so close to you that you can just look at them, and they’ll know what youre talking about, or you guys can just sit there doing jack all and still have a good time, or the friends you can rely on when you just want to chill at random times of the day. This is love <3 chi is a hobbit.

til next time..
jenniferxx