1 eventually becomes 2.

i was asked about you today. subconciously it frustrated me. and i didnt realise until now. no longer there. but you still manage to piss me off.


im not talking to you. im not making effort. its not because im angry at you. its because i dont want to take it out on you. and have to regret it tomorrow.

frustrated.agitated.angry.emotional.fragile.

♫

25 is my favourite #.

1. loving "call you tonight" - johnta austin.
2. i forgive easily, but i never forget.
3. i dread going to work every sunday.
4. i could drink warm water all day.
5. i miss primary school.
6. when my cousin was young he mistook dog shit for a rock, and picked it up!
7. recently purchased an asus netbook.
8. my brothers and i used to ride my cousins dog when we were young.
9. i used to cry when teachers yelled at me.
10. i believe in ghosts and spirits.
11. at night i will never whistle or look up at trees.
12. i love finding old things when i clean my room.
13. i regret not ever taking a family portrait.
14. i chucked out all of my books after the hsc.
15. i like to keep a record of what i do everyday in my diary.
16. i hate it when people mistake my joy for immaturity.
17. i wish i could go back to 2005.
18. i love looking back at old photos to see how people have changed.
19. dad wont let us dl any music, so im forced to mooch.
20. i make sure i say goodbye or goodnight to my parents before i go anywhere.
21. i used to cry in my closet when mum and dad yelled at me.
22. i need to buy filling for my bean bags.
23. i cant stand looking downstairs once the lights are off.
24. i have no idea how to save money.
25. my brother wanted a monkey as a pet.

my little secret.

im
into
you.

impulsive and ready for it all.

Infatuation is instant desire.
It is marked by a feeling of insecurity.
You are excited and impulsive.

so not a happy chap.

oh so disappointed with tonights game.
everything was against us.
missing players, jack ass biased ref, stupid outcast asian on the other team who likes to barge at little girls!

i've said this before, but tonight we honestly had a chance to win against this team.
end result was 5-4, their way.
albert was jipped two tries, because of his dodgey tags that kept flying off cause he was "too fast" lol.
and bong one, because of some rule we've never heard of.
in the end.. we lost and im disappointed.

:(

chinese whispers.

in love with ..
"call you tonight" - johnta austin


call me tonight ..

time of celebration.

exams are over! ..... not quite.

i finished my second exam today and it felt oh so good. my heads already set to holiday mode.

i felt so relieved to have finished darn management, i rewarded myself for all that hard studying *cough, with shopping!

as soon as i left the exam room, i headed straight for parramatta westfields. the black and gold quilted forever new bag was waiting for me :) when i got there, the pretty lady told me it was sold out :( so i had my heart set on accessories... i love my newly made purchases.

for those who still have exams goodluck lads and ladettes.
just think of how much fun we can have after!

something about you.

i want ..
but i cant have.

climb on out of your window.

sweet thing.
the moon is high
and the night is young
come on and meet me
in the back yard
under the cotton wood tree

uni: the fun police.

if you were a person, i'd stab you.

CURSE YOU UNIVERSITY!

fear of the unknown.

recent events, one in particular has lead me to blog again. ive found a new appreciation for my family and friends. but its sad how something like this had to happen to make me realise how much they really do care and love me or what lengths they'd go through for me. i dont feel there is anything i could do that is enough to repay my parents for what they did for me that night. although at times it doesnt seem like i care, i really do. from the smallest things they do for me, like go buy me ice cream at late hours, just cause im craving it, to spending loads of money on education for my future.
im taking baby steps to repay them.. in my own way.

as for what happened that night, its left me scared. scared for the outcome. whether it be nothing or something. its the fear of the unknown. i dont know what to expect. i dont know how to prepare myself for what is to come.


jennifer xx