fear of the unknown.

recent events, one in particular has lead me to blog again. ive found a new appreciation for my family and friends. but its sad how something like this had to happen to make me realise how much they really do care and love me or what lengths they'd go through for me. i dont feel there is anything i could do that is enough to repay my parents for what they did for me that night. although at times it doesnt seem like i care, i really do. from the smallest things they do for me, like go buy me ice cream at late hours, just cause im craving it, to spending loads of money on education for my future.
im taking baby steps to repay them.. in my own way.

as for what happened that night, its left me scared. scared for the outcome. whether it be nothing or something. its the fear of the unknown. i dont know what to expect. i dont know how to prepare myself for what is to come.


jennifer xx